I'm dreading this week and this work day. I don't know what bomb is going to be dropped on me again by her or when. I don't know when I will get in trouble again. The fear of getting into trouble is eating at me. This is NOT healthy for me.

I pray that my interview today leads somewhere. Please oh please let it lead to a job offer.

Yesterday I was SO anxious, I had to take two Lorazapam to calm down. I'm going to be taking this every day until I can leave. My anxiety is through the roof.