I’ve been splitting up my Geodon these last few days because of my high anxiety. Today my anxiety was fine so I took all 180mil Geodon and a Valium and a 10 mil melatonin at one time and now I feel like throwing up. Maybe I should have taken the 20mil a couple hours before the 160. I can’t have any pepto bismol or any antacid for that matter to help with my nausea. I can’t have tea either which always calms my stomach. When a therapist tells me not to do something I don’t listen. When it’s for medical reasons I’m thinking “man your station!” And I take it super seriously. But I want to break the rules so badly right now for a mug of tension tamer tea. I wonder if a lifesaver mint would help.
My friend who was a staff from a treatment center I was in from 2007-2009 still keeps in touch with me. She asked for my new address so she could send me some snacks and stuff. In 11 years she’s been the one person who’s kept in touch. I have other people on Facebook who regularly like and comment on my stuff. But she’s been there for the whole 11 years after I left that place.
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