So Sorry things are being so hard also! Please Do not give up! Hugs. i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters about being Honest with your partner and perhaps contacting a therapist. Does this happen with other people also maybe? Perhaps there are some trust issues at play that you may want to work on. Either way, i am not a professional so i can't really tell you. i think it may be useful to talk about this with someone else. i also agree with the other wise and wonderful posters that knowing and acknowleding the issues is already a good thing and key perhaps also. Now you just need to improve things as much as possible. i Hope things will improve really soon for everyone. Please Do update us and let us know if there's anything we can do to help obviously. Be Kind. Much Love. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Jessii, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!