I woke up right before 2AM. I thought it was about 5. My phone was dead so I couldn’t plug in my headphones and listen to music. So I screwed around a bit online until my phone reached 30%. Then I listened to music until I had to plug it in again. I then tried watching TV but I couldn’t get involved in anything. I got up at 6 to take a shower. Ever since I switched beds with my mom I’ve slept really badly. I can’t remember the last time I slept well to be honest. I am a bit crabby and anxious but I took a 20 mil geodon and a Valium and I feel better. But I have bad acid reflux and I can’t take anything for it.

I go for my Covid test at 3 today. I still don’t have to quarantine so I think I’ll go to Applebee’s on Thursday for lunch.

I mean it’s gonna be rough for awhile and I’m just going to accept that it will be bad but that things will get better.

I found a bakery this morning. I got some sourdough bread and a little pumpkin cheesecake and 2 macaroons. I’ve been craving fresh bread and pumpkin cheesecake for awhile.

Now I’m home until my Covid test. My mom is going to take my brother to his Pdoc appointment and I’m going to use that time to put some stuff I don’t want her seeing in my dresser and transferring it to my luggage bag on the top shelf of my closet. Just in case she needs to help me out and get anything in my dresser for me. I did that last October and I remember hiding things in duffel bags. My mom did end up cleaning my room while I was downstairs. She never said anything if she found stuff. My therapist at the time who knew about this stuff said she doubt my mom was looking in a duffel bag

But it’s best now to hide anything I don’t want my mom coming across later.

I also need to do a big grocery store pickup or delivery order for Saturday. I don’t have anything but ramen, cereal, drinks, snacks, and candy in my house. I had my last Cauliflower crust pizza yesterday and I finished my Japanese fish shaped green tea and red bean ice cream bars too.