For anyone that still reads my ramblings, I’ll talk a little bit about how my night went. I was feeling well, but ready to hopefully get a better nights sleep. I took the prazosin for nightmares and the low-dose seroquel to help me get to sleep. I did in fact have a better time going to sleep, but I did still have some vivid dreams, although upon waking they didn’t cause as much issue as they did before. I did wake up rather early, like 3:30am. So, partial success is still success in my book. Maybe with a better routine, perhaps taking my other meds a bit earlier and trying to limit caffeine in the evening, things will get better.

I also forgot about the first-dose effect of prazosin. It’s technically a blood pressure medicine and the side effect of postural hypotension can be very pronounced. I woke up to use the bathroom and almost passed out. I had to lay down on the bathroom floor. I experienced the same thing the first time I ever took it, so I should have been aware it is probable to happen to me. I don’t remember it ever happening after that though. Guess I’ll do well to remember that.

I still have a very hard time with my meds. It’s something I’m gonna have to get over because I refuse to give it up. The issue is a few hours after taking my medicine, I always feel bad. Mentally bad, physically crappy – but it passes within an hour or two and I start feeling a lot better. I can’t allow a few hours of unease to erase the 90% of the time being awake being a lot better. I Just have to get over it. Yesterday was really rough, but I also got a flu shot. Perhaps just the exacerbated side effects of tiredness and everything just made it seem that much worse.

Hopefully I will find something else to do with my life soon. I truly do feel I spend most of my time waiting for meal times, or planning around routine things. Breakfast-lunch-dinner, time to take meds etc. I’m working on being productive again. It’s been too long.