I’m trying my best today. I’m still just hanging on. I took 20 mil extra of one of my meds and I think I’ll take another Valium. I’ve been a bit needy today with my mom. I asked to go to the bakery this morning. But then I was ok and I had to go for a Covid test and I asked to go to Sonic on our way back. I just feel like a burden on her and I feel like I’m taking up her time and spending her money. I feel like it may get worse after Friday when recovery will take 6 weeks and I’ll have weight restrictions and stuff. But I am going to try very hard for that not to happen.

But honestly I’ve been a complete asshole and even though I have a lot going on with the sudden termination of my therapist and figuring out the new one does not mean I can just run the house hold the way I’ve been doing.

Yeah I need a 4th Valium for sure and a lot of water. I need to know just how much money I owe my mom so I can pay her back. Then my grocery shopping this weekend will all be delivery or pickup so it’s simple.