Thanks @sarahsweets! You're probably right. It just seemed like when I started with the 20mg things were pretty good and that when the dose went to 40mg, my anxiety cleared but my depression got worse. Now that I'm every other day or even every third day my anxiety is back a bit and that's what's causing me issues currently. I have been thinking lately about getting off of them altogether, but maybe I just need to give 40mg every day a try for a while. Thanks for your input and advice!

As to support system, I have a brother who was just here late last week and I have one real world friend that I meet for coffee every few weeks, though I cancelled our last meet for this weekend because my mood was so bad. And I'm here a lot but don't post much because it makes me feel needy.

I've got some things to think about. Thanks again!