I’m actually doing really well today. I haven’t had any Valium. Although that may come and get me later if I don’t stay ahead of my anxiety. My mom and I went out shopping today. We went all over to many stores. She bought me a lot of stuff. I had told her I’d wait until I got money but she insisted on buying me stuff so I’ll have it for the next 2 days. She got me a bunch of frozen breaded vegetables and some frozen lasagnas and other frozen stuff. Then she got me a few candy bars and some chapstick and those stupid pads I’ll need. I actually slept last night for the first time in forever. I fell asleep around 8:30 and I woke up just before 7. I’m home now for the day. Tomorrow I’m going to Applebee’s for lunch and then I have to wash my blankets and take a shower at night with this special kind of pre surgery soap.

I’m not currently nervous about the surgery itself although I’m worried my UTI is still there. But I’m wondering if it’s somatic. Does anyone know if bladder stuff can be somatic related? I’ve been on antibiotics for awhile and this comes and goes. It’s not consistent and it seemed to come on as soon as I got approved for my surgery. I’m also wondering if I’m just wearing the wrong size underwear to be honest.

Also my Covid test came back negative. They sure can do things fast now. I got the results in about 15 hours.

I’ll probably need to stop eating around midnight Friday . So I’m going to wake up at 9 or 10 and just eat a ton of stuff. I’ve made the mistake before of not eating after 4PM and being very hungry all day.