two more weeks to go

im having a bad day. im feeling really down and i am very tired. My upper back is having a flare up too. just all around crappy really.

right now T would be really useful for helping me with scheduling and keeping myself together. There is so much new(ish) responsibility on me. i don't self-structure very well. i'm all over the place and just digging myself in deeper into confusion and distress. i just don't give a flying %#@&#! anymore. i need to finish a business plan, research and apply for programs, keep current with the reading list i need to complete... websites to develop anf finish.... too many things pressing on me.. i don't have a hope in hell of makiong it through any of this.

i m sorry i just noticed how bad my typing is but please excuse.. i am sitting sideways to computer with legs elevated trying to keep the back pain to a minimum

i just dont care anymore. i dont have enough money and i am sinking into debt. My income is drying up faster than i can fix. i can't do most jobs due to physical limitations.

im sorry. this turned into a sob story

very bad day