Dear T,
That podcast was actually really annoying, like almost everyone involved in it. I sort of see why you recommended it to me. I will think of this as a case of "it's the thought that counts." Like it was nice that you thought of me when you heard it and decided to pass it along to me. Though...is this one you listen to regularly? It just doesn't sound like something you'd be into, just the whole tone of it, from other stuff you've said you are or aren't into. Though I imagine it was different with the previous hosts (my friend filled me in on that, as I'm not that up on NPR).

Also, today's session just felt very...OK to me. Like in the "Eh, it was OK." Not that there was anything especially bad about it, but it just felt like it sort of happened. And there wasn't like some big insight or funny moment or, I don't know, connected moment. Again, nothing bad, it just...was.

Of course, this didn't occur to me until after session, but I wonder if in some ways I'm pulling back from you because of your response to my checking in on your safety? I know it was only a "minor infraction," and you said it wasn't a big deal at all, but it still felt like a sort of rejection. I'm just not sure how to explain that to you? So maybe I'm pulling back and sort of protecting myself? I've done that before. But doing that won't help me. Of course, next session is Friday, the worst day to bring up stuff like that. But I guess I probably should do it anyway, at least briefly. Or maybe I don't need to actually bring it up? Just be conscious of whether I'm pulling away/protecting myself, and fight against that urge?

Love,
LT