I didn’t get to sleep until late last night so I’ve been tired all day. I was able to talk to the photographer and everything is copacetic. I’m still worried about the marriage license and that RS may not get his updated license in time. But it is what it is, if it doesn’t come it doesn’t come. I was the same way with closing on the house; I wasn’t convinced we had it until we had the signed papers in our hands. Even sitting outside the title agency I was convinced something was going to go wrong.

My student started to have hallucinations today and had a meltdown. I noticed it as soon as she started whispering to herself. I asked if she was ok and she said with wild eyes NO, something is very wrong here. She got upset that I was looking at her so I moved away and kept my eyes straight ahead. The nurse came in and talked her down.

It was sad to watch. I’ve never full on hallucinated but I’ve been paranoid and I know that nothing anyone said would convince me otherwise. I actually don’t know how to respond, I feel like challenging the hallucinations may be more triggering. I know I got mad in the hospital when they tried to tell me the voices weren’t real. However that was true, it was REAL VOICES and noise that was too loud in my head. But it was frustrating to have no one believe me about what I was sure was definitely happening.

Anyway she was calm by dismissal and she actually was smiling and laughing with me because we were swinging and I was joking about how I couldn’t keep up (again, true, I couldn’t swing nearly as high as her!). So at least there’s that.