Hello and welcome to the Forums. It is very nice to meet you.

Anxiety is so brutal and cruel. I suffer from it and panic attacks. People not burdened with these will never understand what heavy burdens they are. They are crushingly heavy burdens.

I was helped a lot by medication for anxiety and panic disorder and by techniques offered by cognitive behavior therapists. I imagine that some of these techniques are available on the Internet but am not sure. Perhaps you could do a search of "anxiety" and "cognitive behavior therapy." I am not a therapist myself and so cannot offer advice.

I do hope you find something that helps you and gives you some relief from your distress. It is just awful that you are suffering so! Hopefully others here will see your post and have better ideas than my poor ideas. My heart goes out to you!