Lately I'm feeling generally sad and anxious. I feel sad as I feel like I don't have good quality friends and family at all. And I feel anxious about my trip coming up in a couple of weeks. A good part of me doesn't feel like going, but I feel like I must. I need to get away from the place where I am now that brings me down and I'm going on that trip to scout out if I want to move there. And that's another thing, not feeling at home where I am and feel like I have to move. And having to do this at my age instead of feeling like being settled because of loving where I am now.