I'm in kind of a weird place right now. My depression has lifted a lot and for the first time in a very long time for me. Thinking clearer, and more positive has left me to realize I have a lot of ingrained negative thoughts and feelings about myself. They are no longer "just depression" but literal pieces of how I think and feel. I feel like anyone who goes through multiple bouts, or even prolonged bouts of depression can relate.

Honestly, I feel 1000% better from where I was, but I caught myself today saying things like " There's no reason to try to deal with other people -- no one wants to be around you. You aren't attractive, you aren't charismatic, you offer nothing and suck up so much resource. Just leave everyone else out of your crap."


While I feel that way, that stands a large problem between reintroducing myself to a quality life. I am in therapy and things, so I'll be working on it -- but I was wondering have any of you ever thought about the long term effects of depression? It really does alter more than just a mindset in the midst of an episode.