I haven’t really felt any UTI stuff since I got my phone call. So maybe the pain really was fused by anxiety. Treatment resistant pain is always a bit suspicious for me. We got Chinese food for dinner but it wasn’t very good. We’re still figuring things out and what are good places and what aren’t. I’m doing laundry now. My pajamas and my sheet that I’m going to put on my bed. Then I’ll take a shower after that load is done. I have my 2 blankets I’ll be using in the washer right now. I can’t use my weighted blankets since they want you to sleep on clean sheets and my weighted blankets can’t be washed. I have a hunk of dried chocolate on one of my weighted blankets. Which is why I’m putting the sheet on the bed. Maybe I should just take the weighted blankets off my bed entirely and fold them and put them away since i probably won’t be able to use them at all for a long time.

I had to take my meds properly tonight so I took just the 100 mil Geodon tonight. I did take a 20 this morning when I should have taken an 80. So I’m a bit low today. But Tomorrow I’ll have to take the 80mil in the morning. Ill just have to do this temporarily. I don’t want 200 mil of Geodon in my system and have it cause issues. I’m contemplating whether to take a melatonin tonight or not. I told the nurse on the phone I take it every night and she didn’t say not to. But if I could get away without taking it I’d like that.

My mind is just going nonstop I’m trying to shut it down.