Today has been a bit eventful for me. I haven’t been walking in about a week and a half, and I really should enjoy this weather while it lasts. Maybe tomorrow I’ll make it out to do that. My medicine-induced uneasiness (I really don’t know how to put it otherwise) was less bad today. I felt a bit more irritable, but I managed to not nap today. Perhaps as time passes it will be easier to tolerate. Here is to hoping! I know it may seem silly to both complain and NOT change the medicine, but nothing has ever worked for me – at least not like this. I’ll accept a little rain with my sunshine so to speak. If it means I can enjoy the majority of my day feeling good, so be it. I don’t wanna do trial-and-error to see if something else can do it without that effect. I guess I just feel better if I complain about it here. Haha!

I finally got that call I’ve been waiting for. Long story short – the district manager is gonna have a talk with the employees. She even pulled the call. Apparently the regional manager was supposed to follow up with me but never did, so she was annoyed by that. It may be just an attempt to make me feel heard and complacent, but she gave me her cell phone number and told me because she values my loyalty to their pharmacy, that since my biggest issue is not wanting to having to deal with those I had issues with, I can text her and she will give me a heads up of when would be best to come to get my meds. While I doubt I’ll go through that trouble, it was nice she offered me that. I’m glad to at least be validated that they were unprofessional and it will be addressed. I made it clear, I didn’t appreciate being berated for being an advocate for myself and my medicine. She wholeheartedly agreed. It only took “48 hours” and three weeks of bull to get a response. At least I can say it was addressed and put it behind me as best I can. I won’t pretend I’m not upset, but I think if they want my business, it is the least they can do to help me ensure I don’t have to deal with that person, who she named for me since the pharmacist wouldn’t. To be fair, it’s been fairly easy to circumvent that, I just ask to speak to the pharmacist (I’ve lucked out and it’s not been the one I had the issue with) to check me out (to avoid the tech who I don’t know which one it is). I’ll probably just continue to do that. She said their business model is changing anyway and they want the pharmacist to be more present with customers anyway.

Nothing exciting is planned to happen for awhile. I don’t have therapy for another month and psychiatrist visits are just check-ins right now. I am more stable than I have ever been so I’m really just resigning myself to gratitude something is working. I have moments (especially in my “uneasiness” moments) where I really take some hard looks at my life and where things are. I need to make changes. At least I am at a point where I feel like I can work forward, and not be stuck by my own mental functioning. The meds help. I have to remember that for the future. (I haven’t had the best luck with meds, and usually end up not taking them.. but I feel this time will be different).
I’m finding interests again, I’m enjoying engaging conversation online, or even with myself (I admit it. I talk to myself haha). It’s been refreshing.

Well, that’s all I got to report. I appreciate everyone who takes time to read my bull. I think I’ve mentioned in the past I’ve had issues with forums and people. While I’ve still got my reservations about what I post, how, or why… I’ve at least had some precautions that have helped. Thanks everyone for making me feel at least welcome to be here, instead of going against the grain, so to speak.