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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird
Thank you Desoxyn, I feel bad about blowing up roll call with all my ED problems but it's become an issue again the past several months and not many people post in the ED part of the forum. I'll have to talk to my therapist about it next time we speak. Actually, I have an appointment with my psychiatrist next week. I should talk to her, to see what I can do and what her advice is. She's aware of the issue, has been for many years, but I was what is it called, in a period of remission from anorexia binge/purge type almost a year until now. Now it's back in the cycle of restrict/binge/purge. And I seriously just need to stop. Last time I ended up in the hospital because my electrolytes were all screwed up causing my heart to beat abnormally, and I was freezing/shivering all the time from malnutrition. That scared me straight for awhile. I have to stop having this obsession with my weight and control
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Don't feel bad! Feel good! (Easier said than done..)
You're therapist has done good for you judging on how much you've gotten better. Remember that you are loved, have infinite worth and that things will get better if you know these things and put your mind to it.
Your anxiety is really bad.. I like to play mind tricks on myself - for example like "I will control my anxiety - Then I will be in a calm enough state of mind to rationally phase out the proxy control about weight" (If I was in your situation - But idk if that's even valid cuz I'm not a therapist).
If your therapy isn't working, a new therapist would be needed. I like my therapist but I think that I freaked her out because I mostly tell everyone about my trauma right away - It's just a lot of thoughts that swirl around - New trauma every couple of months and then I get over it.. Mild trauma..
You could also try online therapy through apps, websites etc.. Here is good too - I can't talk about drugs to normal people, don't agree with abstinence and active addicts make it worse.. It's just a big F cluster of stuff..
Post here as much as you need <3