I’m so hurt. I lost my husband due to this illness and today he accidentally sent me a message meant for a woman he’s talking to. It was in Spanish. He doesn’t even speak Spanish. He used a translator. I keep thinking he will forgive me and one day we will get back together, but I have to face reality. He’s moved on. It just breaks my heart. The divorce isn’t even final yet and he’s talking to someone. I haven’t even considered dating. I don’t know who would want to be with me and this illness. I’m so scared I’ll go manic again. I don’t want to put anyone else through it and I thought my husband would be there for better or worse, but he couldn’t handle it. I was with him for 11 years… now I feel like I’ll be alone for the rest of my life. I just don’t see myself wanting to be with anyone else. I don’t know if that will ever change. I’m just so hurt. He told me when I first went manic and kicked him out that he wouldn’t ever want to be with anyone else and I was the love of his life. I made poor choices while manic and I regret them so badly, but I still thought he would never even look for someone else. But now he has and I feel like he never loved me as much as he said he did. I feel like I’ll never find that love again. We also have a 3 year old so I have to see him every week. I’m so upset.