Never put your whole “self” in the hands of another human being.
There’s someone else out there somewhere who would love to share their
life with you. You just haven’t found him yet. And even if you don’t ? That’s the problem with this “ love” business which is actually fairly new in human history.
The idea of staying with one person your whole life. It’s platonic fantasy.
Because of this we have not followed up on the basic levels of self survival.
I don’t want to sound mean but we generally find this out when we’re older
and it’s late in life. I know how you feel.