I finally got some sleep after being up for 42 hours straight, I gave in and took my thorazine because I didn't want to go another 24 hours without sleep which seemed likely to happen by that point. I feel better, less paranoid/weird feeling. I guess I've come to the conclusion that I literally cannot sleep on my abilify injection unless I'm still on the thorazine too. I can't stop taking it, I have to stop messing with it/trying to stop it my myself. I don't want to stop the abilify injection either because it's helped me be stable, the only problem is I can't sleep on it, thus the thorazine is necessary.
I'm just going to stay on all my meds and stop messing with them.

I am going to CVS on Saturday to pick up my new prescription for famotidine. Hopefully it helps the acid reflux. At some point next week I need to get a ride to the hospital to turn in a sample to the lab so I can get my prescription for the Xulane birth control patches. Hopefully that helps my PMS and regulates my monthly cycle.

I decided to order this Celtic cross necklace. I was thinking of a Claddagh ring by the same company (made in Ireland), but I don't want to have to get it resized if my weight ever changes. Plus the cross symbolizes my Catholic faith, me being part Irish, my favorite color is green, I like Celtic designs, and I'm hoping it's a constant reminder to stay strong and keep focused on my eating disorder recovery. I think having a constant physical reminder will be helpful to have. I'll probably get the Claddagh ring eventually, maybe 2 years from now as a reward for making it to 2 years of solid recovery.

Anyway, I've been browsing around on Amazon, picking out some things to buy for my family and friends for Christmas. I won't be able to start my Christmas shopping till around November but I think I have picked out some nice things for them.

I'm happy it's October. I can't wait till the leaves start changing colors, maybe they already have, I haven't been out much lately. I'm going to carve a pumpkin this year, I didn't last year for some reason. I think last year I was too depressed and too anxious to do things like that because of concerns/worries over the pandemic were taking up all my mental space.

The picture below is the necklace I'm getting