I am struggling hard today again with Guilt over my Attempt and how Steve was just helpless waiting to see if I would pull through. He has told me over and over that I wasn't in my right mind and I know I wasn't, I have virtually no idea what happened until I woke up 2 almost 3 days later.

Exhausted but also getting hit hard with Panic Attacks and Anxiety. I'm using coping skills of all kinds but Wow its just hard at times but the panic and anxiety attacks eventually do ease. I use the Pulse Ox as it shows heart rate so I breath and wait until I see numbers dropping, seems like hours sometimes but it isn't.

I'm going to try journaling again. Its hit and miss. But its worth a shot.

Hope everyone has a nice weekend