The surgery went fine. I got there at noon. Got called back almost right away. They were ahead of schedule. So I had my IVs, I had to get 2 for some reason. Man did they hurt. Ive never had IVs hurt. It’s like they just stuck a long needle into both my hands. The nurse was all like “hold my hand.” When she was putting the first one in and I couldn’t tell if that was just protocal or if she wanted me to hold her hand for emotional support. Both the doctor and the anesthesigist came in rather quickly after I got in. The nurse had to shave me and I was really hoping they’d do that when I was asleep. But the nurse kept me covered up as much as she could. There were like 2 other nurses in the room though doing other stuff. awkward

Then I got taken back. That OR staff was the nicest of the 3 I’ve dealt with. The oxygen mask was a bit too tight and someone noticed so she just held it on my face until I went under: I woke up in recovery and I kept saying I was dizzy. Then I started hyper venitilaing and the nurse told me to breathe. I kept touching my face which she told me not to do. I wasn’t wearing a mask. After awhile I was brought back to my room and my mom was allowed to come in.

I had a bit of an issue with not being able to use the bathroom. Which I have to do. They gave me a bunch of coffee and water and I still couldn’t go. So the nurse told me if I didn’t go in 6 hours I’d have to go the ER so they could put a Cather in. But I got home and I drank a lot of water and I finally went a lot. The pain wasn’t too bad but now it is. I had a couple oral pain meds including Tylenol with codine before I went into the OR. I swear I heard they gave me fentanyl when I was in surgery: which is a bit freaky. Now I’m just on narco which is what I was on the last two surgeries and I took one as soon as I could and the pain is pretty bad.. I’m in bed now propped up a bit with my pillow arm.

So far no post op depression. I actually feel pretty good about the surgery and how nice everyone was. I was at one of the best hospitals in the state. When the doctor came to see me before he said “is everyone treating you ok?” Then he patted my foot when he left. His bedside manner was much better then my top surgeon.

But yeah so far pain but no depression and I hope it stays that way.

I can’t even really tell I was intubated either. My voice was hoarse for a bit but it doesn’t hurt or anything now. Just a bit scratchy.

Standing up feels much better then sitting down. I hope I get some sleep though. I took the pain med so I hope I get tired soon.

I still haven’t fallen asleep. The pain is a bit much right now. I took a Tylenol. The bleeding is almost gone though.

My overall moods and anxiety are stable.