Hi all! I've not kept up at all recently, too much to catch up, sorry to say. But in trying to get my bearings scanning the last couple of pages...
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Originally Posted by ~Christina
I am struggling hard today again with Guilt over my Attempt and how Steve was just helpless waiting to see if I would pull through. He has told me over and over that I wasn't in my right mind and I know I wasn't, I have virtually no idea what happened until I woke up 2 almost 3 days later.
Exhausted but also getting hit hard with Panic Attacks and Anxiety. I'm using coping skills of all kinds but Wow its just hard at times but the panic and anxiety attacks eventually do ease. I use the Pulse Ox as it shows heart rate so I breath and wait until I see numbers dropping, seems like hours sometimes but it isn't.
I'm going to try journaling again. Its hit and miss. But its worth a shot.
Hope everyone has a nice weekend
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Oh you sweet woman, I am SO sorry how much you are having to deal with, and what is going on for you. Laying here with big pauses.... Feelings, more than words come. Sending them via magic wand with lots and lots of love.
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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967
Despite my best efforts at self care, I have a massive case of burnout. Mom doesn’t want part time care coming in and I’m at my wit’s end. I’m not sure what the answer is but I can’t effectively continue to care for them both without some outside help. .
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Is it alright if I butt in with my 2 cents? Get the help. Full stop. Your mother needs to understand that you have CLEARLY cared above and beyond for her, and SHE needs to reciprocate by caring for YOU. And the form that takes is allowing you to breathe, (insert preferred exasperated exclamation here, mine is quite salty as they say). This should not be a one way street. I'm not saying she doesn't express care in other ways (I wouldn't really know). But to deny you help is just plain cruel. Yes, cruel. And VERY selfish to boot. She needs to be made to understand this. And if she doesn't, remember, the decision is
yours to make, not hers. YOU are the one who needs relief. YOU need to look out for YOU.