RS didn’t get home until late last night (he was at the car races with his dad) but I specifically stayed up so I could talk with him. I explained why I may have seemed distant in the past couple of weeks and that I was scared for all the aforementioned reasons. And of course, like he always is, he was very understanding. He knew something had been bothering me but also knew not to press me about it because I would have just closed myself off further. He did understand where it came from and that it had nothing to do with him, which is good because I thought he was going to think I just didn’t want to be with him.

I do feel much better now, and I am proud of myself for talking about it. Most of the time I resolve to talk about something important and then when he actually joins me in bed at night (when we do our talking that we don’t want my son to hear lol) i clam up and just say nothing’s wrong. F so it’s minor but good progress for me that RS also recognized.

Unfortunately we stayed up much later than usual and I had to rouse myself at 8am so we could get our errands done early as we have a party to go to at 1pm. I really feel like I could fall asleep at this moment!

Now everything is worked out for the wedding and the only thing to worry about is the damn license. If RS’s updated license doesn’t come in time I really hope the township can find it in their cold dead bureaucratic hearts to accept the paper from the DMV that states the address change was made with the MVC months ago. It is official enough for police if you get pulled over!