I feel so good right now! Does anyone else get episodes that are a mixed bag of lollies? Technically I don’t know if I have bipolar, I just know that mood stabilisers help me stop getting mentally distractible and over excited. I’m in a good episode right now. I can go from being in a healthy, normal state; to feeling euphoric and hypomanic and I kind of bounce between those states over weeks during episodes. Right now I it’s late at night and I feel euphoric. There’s this beautiful Enya song and I’ve listened to it on repeat for hours. I feel excited by music, colours and textures and feel a joyful oneness with everything and I’m enjoy this magical sense of being right now? I feel like I want to walk in the rain and listen to music and just be awake forever. I feel so texturally and sensually engaged. When they’re good (my hypomanic episodes) I tend to feel really excited and motivated and moved by things. I just feel alone because no one else is feeling all these euphoric feelings I am. I feel so spiritually free. For example, I listened to a song on repeat for hours and it’s 4am and I haven’t slept yet, I just feel so inspired. I just want to listen to songs and stay awake and walk all the time and I feel like I want to live forever and I feel a part of space.
It’s like a party that you don’t want to stop, and you feel kind of drunk. I have to admit I don’t get strong hypomanic episodes and I’m really lucky that way, I still feel tired for example, and I get mixed episodes too. But this episode feels so nice, I haven’t slept tonight but I think I’ll crash out later. I just feel so at one with the universe and euphoric and emotionally amazing. I just want to keep this party going forever
Does anyone else get moods like this where you’re euphoric and almost drunk on life and you don’t want to sleep even though you’re tired?