So sorry that you are struggling. I suffer from severe anxiety, panic attacks, and depression. I went many, many years fighting it until a few years back when I lost my job and started having suicidal thoughts. My husband got me into a psychiatrist and it was the best decision I ever made. I started taking a medication that really helped get me out of my funk. My psychiatrist is amazing and she truly cares. It is important to have doctors and people around you that you trust and feel loved by. Please seek help from a therapist or psychiatrist! It really does help. Anxiety can be debilitating, I struggle still everyday, but a lot of things can help - mindfullness, meditation, food, taking vitamins, therapy, or taking meds from doctor ( I took lexapro and kolonopin).

The negative thoughts and feelings will pass.......always remember that.