I think I am adjusting to the Seroquel and Geodon. I have no side effects other than feeling hotter than normal. I am not thrilled about being on a AP and a Atypical But at this point I need to just deal with it and remember that I do need it.

Steve hadn't said anything about what happened and I didn't ask. He did share a bit today. I have no memory of what happened after I took the pills. Apparently I spent almost 2 days in our local hospital which I had no clue about. I have no memory of the actual Detox procedure. It's probably best I don't remember everything.

I am still beyond exhausted which Richard assured me is normal after totally breaking down and what I did.

I'm still feeling a huge amount of guilt and Steve has told me over and over to not beat myself up.... it's still hard and I know eventually I can work all that out with Richard.

I'm grateful to be alive and I am focusing on that and working to be kind to myself.

Hope everyone has had a nice start to the week