stress has built up and made us a walking mess. somehow we're pulling off being somewhat 'normal' - whatever that word means.

we feel isolated from everyone. when it comes right down to it, we can't tell anyone what's happening to us. especially since we barely know ourselves.

our need for escape has become another problem to go along with already existing problems. wanting to be anything but sober is causing us to fall apart more so than we have in a while. but what do we do?

our therapist might be leaving. we've worked with him for the better part of 6 years. because they're tied together, we don't know what will happen with our pdoc. we may lose both our T and pdoc within the next month.

needless to say, the stress is high lately. losing someone close to us recently i (t.) believe is what set us off in the first place.

our fiance also had a bit of a breakdown recently, while everything is seeming to looking upwards from here, it weighed on us. triggered some unwanted thoughts.