Dear Temp T.

Thank you. I have been asking myself one question a lot this last week - Why am I not staying with you? Maybe you are the right one, after all. I don't know. I am so confused right now. With everything. Thank you for putting your (fairly obvious) want aside and telling me to go with whatever I think is right for me. The problem is, I don't know what is right for me. Ex T was right for me, but I can't continue with her, and so I have to find someone else. Thank you for agreeing to see me again in three weeks. I know that a lot of therapists wouldn't have agreed to that, because "it isn't ethical for a client to see two therapists at the same time" but this is different and I am grateful that you see that, and that you can put me and my needs first. I needed to know that I can come back, in order to try walking away. I was hoping that this new lady would feel so safe and comfortable that I wouldn't need to do this, but to be honest it was nothing short of a disaster, from my perspective at least.

I sent her that email, just modified ever so slightly, and I am half expecting her to take this as her chance to run away from the nutcase before she gets too involved. It will be interesting to see if she replies and if she does, what she says.

Thank you for saying I can contact you over these next three weeks too, if I need to. You really have been amazingly helpful in your own weird and wacky way, and I am grateful for you for helping me to get through this difficult time.