He didn't want to go to the hospital because he'd be even further behind in school. So we worked out a schedule and got him caught up for last week. His disability paperwork is being worked on. He's sleeping in the living room and I'm on the couch to make myself available at night. I'm taking half of my thorizine so I'm easier to wake up at night.

His T was no help just saying next time he needs to go to the hospital. But what about now? Sure he says he's feeling a little better. He doesn't want to do iop/php because he has school work and he doesn't want to loose his T.
But this kid needs something he doesn't see his T until the end of the month and he's about 3 months out to see his pdoc. I'm left trying to hold everything together. I'm going to break soon.

I'm still depressed myself. I want to take my full med. cry myself to sleep in my bed without judgment but I don't feel right doing that. It's going to seep out some how. All of us are depressed. I'm isolating/listening to music on my headphones. I don't see pdoc until mid next month. I'll probably erase this later. I just don't know what to do at this point.