Thank you, Jennifer! It's all the thoughts. I mean it is easy to say I'll do this, but then all the " inner protests" (in thoughts) want it other ways. The depressed thoughts are creeping in: "I am no good, I will not make it"...

I have to try and try and try again! There is nothing else to do other then to accept the situation: "Dear GoGo, it is naturally for depressed people to think as you do. Just try to go on and slowly, slowly it will go better!"