I’ve been in a deep depression all day. I just felt like once I got everything removed I’d feel better since my issues started when I began my transition and started on the hormones. So I kinda felt like I was going to go back to pre March 2020 me. But I honestly still miss my transference therapist a lot and I still have my other anxious thoughts. My mom said this is just post op stuff I’m feeling and that things will get better. But I just expected to see results immediately and now I feel like everything is just blowing up in my face.

Edit: amazing and very dangerous how a pain pill and Valium combo can change my moods completely around.

My doctor said I wouldn’t be off the pain meds until Tomorrow anyways.

But my bean burrito didn’t go over so well. Which is why I took the pain med. my incisions hurt but my mom claims they look ok.