I've had a clinical psychologist & psychiatrist for 2 years. I feel like it's not doing much. In some ways I guess it's helped, but I do just as much SI & planning. Sometimes I feel like I have too much childhood trauma for what they taught therapists at Universities.

Does anyone know of a system that might work? At this point I don't care what it is. Chinese medicine, acupuncture, a book from a motivational speaker, yoga? Meditation helps a bit sometimes, but feel like something's missing. I doubt there's any single thing that will work, but there must be a better system for me. A program or even a self-help book.

Feeling desperate to be a productive *Happy* person. I see happy people in stores and videos and just can't imagine what that must feel like. It must be amazing!