To avoid being hungry. I can take all my meds and just go to bed and sleep through my hunger. Basically everything I do and all the med issues I have are traced back to my eating habits and obsession with my weight. Which is why therapists won’t work with me unless they specialize in EDs.

I mean I’ve lost 20 pounds since Thanksgiving. So it’s been working and my blood work and blood pressure and other stuff is always fine despite my eating, caffeine, and med issues. My health in general is in really good condition.