I feel the same at the moment. I am scared of what I mite do next. Ive cuts. bruises and scars all over my body. Being around life stresses and trying to fit in with what other people want you to be or what is deemed 'normal', is draining.
So tired, cant be myself, cant look after my daughter in the best way. waiting til tonite so i can go to my room, and rapid cycle on my own. Just a week away, from it all, contact everything mit sort me out. but i duno what to do. I cant run away but need to be safe for a while.

The thing is though that some people think you cant be crazy if you want to go yourself, but aint it better than being found in despair, attempted suicide or even dead?
only we know when our head is going to snap!!

hope you get the help you need. it depends where you live aswell.
england doesnt favour bipolar diagnoses, the psychs here dont understand it