I've recently had my diagnosis switched to this. I'm having a hard time believing it, but I also know that many of the things I experience aren't quite normal. I went back on my antipsychotic a week ago but I don't know how much it's helping right now. I feel good but there's a lot of weird stuff going on and none of my usual triggers are sending my mood down at all. It's like my brain is keeping me from feeling low which most people would say is a good thing but I really don't want to cycle up into mania again. I feel like I have good insight but my brain gets better at tricking me and the fiction/reality line seems a bit blurry because of how it feels like things are lining up in a way that has me on edge. Random sounds to me will be interpreted as they said my name. I'd see people on the side of the highway running only they were made of their surroundings like an event horizon of a black hole curving light. It's not easy to describe but seemed kind of off.

I mean I feel normal right now? I still think I'm hearing my name and seeing words/messages appear on my hand but at what degree is this kind of stuff acceptable?