I told my mom about the situation.. I told her that I'm stressed. She said that it would make her stressed if I'm not happy and that I should look forward to the vacation - But the reason I'm stressed is because I'm NOT on the vacation right? When I am, things will be good.. But that hasn't happened yet so... I mean I have to milk whatever stress before and after the vacation. My life isn't the vacation. But it will be.. For a period of time - Which will help when it is over..