I'm 33, English and live in London. I'm struggling with a dilemma. I have a girlfriend, Chrissy who is wonderful, but our relationship doesn't feel like it is enough for me. We've been together for about 2.5 years, lived together for about 1.5 years, and the problem is as follows. I've consistently suffered from panic and anxiety attacks for about 7 years or so. I've been on medication for a year, and had therapy too. I can't help thinking that I don't love her enough to stay, and it causes me stress, depression and anxiety. We seem to have a normal relationship, sex is fine, although I could take it or leave it. She is a wonderful, supportive, intelligent, person that loves me dearly. The problem is, that I cannot determine if I'm being selfish, by wanting a more compatible passionate relationship with someone I am more attracted to; or have I made a reasonable choice in being with Chrissy, and experiencing the normal dynamics of a long term relationship.

Before I met Chrissy, I lived with my parents, which is unusual for someone of my age. I had a rocky early career, and wasn't financially stable, and I'm still not so. In a way, I saw my impending relationship with Chrissy as a way out from that, since she is very financially independent. This is a concern for me too. I wonder if I opted to be with her to escape from my earlier life - although at the time I was confident that I was doing it for the right reasons.

The medication I have been taking was supposed to decrease the intensity of the feelings which caused me stress and depression. They worked; but my doctor recently stopped prescribing them, and all those familiar scary feelings have returned.

Is there anyone that can help me?