So Sorry things are being hard, but also glad that it seems like you're taking Action. i can Relate to your fears but Please do not let them stop you. Do act with caution but also do what you want to Achieve. i agree with the wise and wonderful puzzclar about Hoping things will Improve really soon also for everyone! Be Kind to yourself and others Obviously! Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @puzzclar, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!