I think it's more of - he doesn't love himself enough...............
I'm pretty at peace with making the decision to distance myself (it feels different than when I tried to do it before) and I'm going to.
His books with his business, his disease, his dishonesty is not my problem anymore. He has to heal himself when he wants to (if that day ever comes). There's nothing I can do about it.
Ha - as I type this, my phone is ringing. He will ring it all day. When I think back on it I think, "My god, I have done this so many times, I can read it like a book". I suppose that is a sign in itself!
I love my life enough to let him go. It's not going to be easy but.........I have you guys at PC to whine to - right? LOL
Still sober, and staying that way.
Thanks for all your support! (((((((((((((Everyone)))))))))))))
Ravyn
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