Good morning Whereto52.

Hopefully you can find some answers here.
I grew up with very low self-esteem. I was the oldest of 5 children.
I remember never feeling like I was good enough, not good enough for my dad, not good enough for the girls I wanted to date, just not good enough.
As a result, I spend most of my time trying to become what I though other people wanted me to be.
The problem was, everyone wanted me to be something different.
Fast forward till today, after three failed marriages, etc. etc.
As I look back, I realize I spent most of my life trying to prove I was good enough.
I found a wonderful counselor several years ago who helped me tremendously.
She finally got through to me and showed me that it really doesn't matter what anyone else thinks of us.
The only thing that matters is what we think of ourselves. Happiness and joy come from within.
If we can get to a point where we like ourselves, we can start to find that internal happiness and joy.
Today, I have grown to the point where I like me. I really don't care what other people think.
Life isn't perfect, I'm still not really good at relationships, but I'm comfortable just being me.

Not sure if this will help or not, but I felt the need to share.

BOM