I had 3 cans of zero sugar sodas today plus the sips from the 2 liter bottle of ginger ale and now my stomach feels super big and bloated. I put on my sweatpants so I’m hoping to get some relief. I can take some more Tylenol now actually. Although I don’t really need it. My stomach just feels really full.

My mom and my sister are talking about thanksgiving day plans. That’s probably all my family will be talking about until thanksgiving day. I can’t remember how many times I’ve stayed at a hotel this year. It’s been a lot and only 2 of those times were non essential trips. I had my move trips in April and May and then my surgery trip in June and then my lake vacation trip in July and then my second mini trip last month. Plus I have my 3rd mini trip a week before thanksgiving and I really wish those theatre tickets were refundable. But at the same time I do want to see the musical. Basically I was hoping my sister would just want to stay here this year. The news said it’s going to be more crowded and more expensive then ever to travel this holiday.

But maybe I just really don’t want to see my family

At least Christmas I know I’ll be at my house. Ever since my first nephew was born in 2013 I’ve had Christmas just with my sister and her family. Sometimes we’d do a big family thing the next day.

But I’m at the point where I just want quite holidays. Not the huge full blown out ones I had when I was a kid.

I don’t get why my sister never responds to me anymore. I just spent $20 on stupid scout popcorn trying to make them happy and she barely even acknowledged me let alone asked how I was feeling.