My moods are getting worse, not better. Yesterday I went on one errand and just one thing set me off and I was screaming at my partner for the rest of the day. Then once I let all of my anger out and I had these thoughts- of just ramming my car into a tree or into a concrete wall, then I start crying and saying im sorry and I know it is getting to my partner. Now today I am tired and just want to crawl under a rock and fade away and the thoughts of cutting are bad today. This is affecting my relationship, I have to get it under control.