I'm so afraid to use or buy drugs anymore. My awareness and decision making has increased dramatically. I had fun - Great fun.. It was a realm that I don't really regret cuz I could have just killed myself. Now my 3rd eye has seen enough.. What to do now... - I think getting insight and ideas from other people would help.. But now the pandemic and insanity. I was so alone though.. Still.. I watched the stars and northern lights, messed up in all ways.. What now.. What.. now..

The corruption of the world is real to me.. So there's that. I'm lucky to be alive now in this situation compared to others. But have I truly lived? I'm not sure.