I missed transference T a lot today. I ate the candy bar and 2 mugs of the tea that reminds me of her. I don’t get it really. I meet with my new therapist Tomorrow. I’m not sure what to expect. Her bio looks good. And she looks ok physically. Yeah ok, I’ll admit I have a type when it comes to therapists.

I’m still on the waiting list for that other one I’ve been waiting for for 3 months. So I guess that’s my plan B. But I’m tired of all this therapy hopping that has and hasn’t been my fault. My last therapist it was totally on her. I don’t usually have trouble with therapists. I stayed with one for 4 years who I should have left after 6 months. I stayed with one for about 3 years. Then my transference one was close to 2 years. It’s just been since I’ve moved that I have had problems finding one. The medical side of things has been outstanding.

I guess maybe I’m just more nervous about the new one then I think I am.