Hello Ember, Welcome to the site.

I'm not sure I can be of much help, but I think I can understand some of what you are going through. I was married to a woman for 9 years with a diagnosed personality disorder--though I didn't find out about her disorder till after the divorce. I commend you for taking steps to deal with your issues, my ex never would. She would go to a shrink, tell him he was helping, then just go on with her life, living in her own world. Again, I commend you for taking steps to deal with your issues.

About a year and a half ago I briefly saw a woman with extreme social anxiety. She was basically confined to her bedroom because of the anxiety and depression. We didn't date long, but we did become close friends. Because of that friendship, I understand how challenging social anxiety can be.

It sounds to me like you are a very responsible person. I'm sorry you are going through all of this right now, especially the part about your father. I never dealt with that, but I my father was an alcoholic and I've had to deal with growing up as an adult child of an alcoholic.

I'm relatively new here myself, but I believe there are good people here who truly care.

BOM