I've done many embarrassing things while psychotic. I even lost a few jobs. I know how you feel, I think the best attitude is to just let go of the past and look forward. What else can you do? You can't change your past. I would not dwell on it. Please try to feel good about yourself by taking action now. Take bubble baths, eat something delicious, listen to soothing music, go out and smell the flowers. You and I are not scum, we are valuable people. I learned this the hard way like you. Be kind to yourself. I am kinder to myself now. I enjoy the little things in life. I am grateful for all that I have. I am older but wiser. I have had many harrowing experiences I can tell you. But, I survived and so will you. Please take care and do random acts of kindness to yourself and others.
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