Let me fill you all in on the details you couldn't care less about! (Just kidding-- just poking fun at the fact I make it a point to update you on things that really probably don't mean much to anyone).

Another hiccup with my prescriber. This time, she just forgot the appointment. The first 3 times were not her fault, but this appointment she just forgot. I really get bent out of shape when things do not go according to schedule. I had my appointment scheduled for 8:15AM and ended up having it at 9:30AM instead. I couldn't even reconfirm my appointment until 9:00AM because the office that manages everything doesn't open until then. Anyway, onto the meat and potatoes.

I really struggled to talk truthfully about how I am feeling. Mood wise I am doing well. Nightmares and anxiety are really high though. Because they are intertwined (medicine causing nightmares which exacerbates my anxiety etc.) I was so afraid she'd want to try another med. I really didn't want that to happen. I mentioned my anxiety and what he have decided to do is up the Lamictal (still titrating up), and add Buspar. I think I have tried Buspar before. I don't remember being on it long. I think we stopped it because I saw a completely different provider. We will see if it helps me with my anxiety. It can't really be an "as needed" medicine, and has to be taken every day and takes a few weeks to have full effect.. but it is not habit forming, sedating, or anything of that nature so it should not be an issue to take. Just another pill in my cocktail I guess.


I scheduled another appointment in three weeks, since the mood is doing better. Let's hope for the best. Next appointment is not until the 27th with a new therapist. Wish me luck on that one too.