It's just hard to be in this depressed state. Nothing seems to matter; even some of the things that used to bring me enjoyment - like spending time with family and friends - is no longer fulfilling. This is such a conundrum to me because I know what it takes to get out of this depression - I just don't have the energy to do any of what it takes. I do sincerely wish all of you well in your personal struggle with this invisible monster.