she has forced me to keep appts when it was really difficult and i told her so. Told her i will be distracted and it wont be a good time to have session. but she insisted that if i took therapy seriously, i would keep the appt. and i did. I was out of town and i had to leave friends to have that session.

ANd Yes i did fear my parents alot, to the point of hiding in my house, so they dont see me...and get mad at me. i spent my whole childhood fearing my parents and staying out of their sight.

With this T, its like she cares enough to scold me..be mad at me...
i can not explain it...but yes theres something that keeps drawing me back to her.

also .i frequently hear from her ...if you think xyz is such a good idea...why dont u go ahead and do it...why are you here wasting your time and money with me?

i feel really guilty and bad then, why am i talking nonsense and she has better things to do.